Let’s see, today was patch day. This of course means that NOTHING WORKS. we start off by looking at this for a while:
Which of course leads to this:
Of course, while you are waiting (if you haven’t Alt-Tabbed), you can read that Blizzard is now taking over for Microsoft as champion of wasted testing opportunities and quality control.
The end result of which is this:
So, I lost a friend last night. Over a friggin macro. Silly boys can’t use logic in conjunction with memory (or either one alone!). Oh well. Obviously since he left me the first time… and the second time… and decided I was exactly like someone else; I shouldn’t be surprised. I’m not really. He likes to leave people before they leave him. Well, I guess he got what he wanted. I wasn’t going to let him out easy though. I needed it to be over so I can stop wondering and torturing myself.
“We’re done.” wow, it was still like being punched in the gut. But I needed it. He’s hurt me enough already, and this was the last time, so I’m ok with that. 
I almost cried though, I’m so chickly! hehe. It’s ok, I’m ok.
I knew his words were completely contradictory to his actions and still I gave him the second and third chance. I once asked him what he wanted from me and he told me he wanted “friendship, understanding, compassion, trust, and enjoyment.” I reminded him of that when I was asking him to decide how it would go, and his answer was: “I want you to forget me lol” hehe! As though I could. I usually give him everything he wants, but I can’t this time. I don’t even want to, and I don’t need to; it won’t make a difference to him b/c he won’t know whether I have or not. He meant a lot to me, and we had a lot more good times than bad. I will always have the memories I thought I shared. And I can look back and smile at them without thinking about our craptastic ending lol. I am satisfied. Odly enough… the song “since You’ve Been Gone fits this situation very appropriately.
I don’t think I ‘deserve’ it, but I did choose it. I choose who has power over me and I am learning to not let anyone have that power. Someday someone won’t abuse my trust, my affection, and my friendship. Someday, I will be valued as I ought to be. Until that day, I have to be careful.
Sometimes: I’m silly, but sometimesthe vast majority of the time: guys are just idiots. hehe. You know it’s true, and I know it’s true.
Onward with year 2 of “F Jayd”! It’ll get better, so they tell me. lol
I am a heinous, heinous person for opening with a pun. But, I have new website to visti before going raiding: Extratasty.com. It’s a site of all kinds of drink recipies, with the capability of recommending drinks based on the ingredients you have in your liquor cabinet (cupboard, etc.).
Ok, probably not really, but it’s nice to pretend. I’ve been off whoring and drinking in Mexico, which is a big change from all the drinking and whoring that I do in the local area. And by the previous sentence, I mean that Otter dragged me off for two weeks of vacation. Our accomodations, being a giant ship, naturally provided absolutely no means for me to log on with paying a kidney and possibly a teste. Fear not, for I am a dedicated gamer.
I, being the giant asshole that I am, brought along my nice new DVD copy of Fable: The Lost Chapters. I didn’t play for the first couple of days, but finally the twitching got to Otter so she allowed me to play. So, I guess what follows is my review.
Fable is a cool idea. I love being able to see the progression of my character as he becomes more evil (like it was a question). The biggest issue I have with it probably stems from the fact that I play Blizzard games. Everything in a Blizz game is targeted when you click on it. Fable uses a “look” system that targets stuff that is directly in the center of the camera. The mouse controls the camera, with click performing actions. So, where I’m used to moving to an object with the cursor and going from there, everytime I move the mouse in Fable I end up looking behind me. Oops. Not to mention the fact when you have a bunch of things in your view, it can be hard to target whatever you really want. As an example, there are a lot of escort quests, where you have two or three guys to give directions to. I’ve told the same guy to “wait” then “follow” repeatedly when all I want is all the idiots to wait. And even when they are waiting, they like to wander around so that they follow you as you try to pull the other idiot away a little bit to tell him to wait too. Frustrating.
But, overall I think it is a pretty cool game. I’m headed down the path of “Spellwarrior” right now since I got some pretty impressive AE spells and a nice big axe to finish everyone else off with. I probably won’t play more until April, when I lose internet access again. It’s going to be a pleasant diversion though when I do get back to it.