uruloki’s lair

I don’t know what it is, but these last few weeks have just been horrible for me in terms of getting my work done. It’s all turned into JIT production, and that’s not normal. I like to get stuff done early so that I don’t have to worry about it, but all I have been doing is doing everything EXCEPT the work that I know is due.

There is stuff that would put me ahead on my thesis work, but all of it seems to be pointless and worthless. It may be my advisor, who seems to be more focused on his work and how my work relates to his than what I want to do. It’s very demotivating. I am thankful that I’m not screwed like another of his students who basically got his prospectus handed to him. He’s not even interested in the area of study, but now he has to make an academic career of it (for at least the next nine months).

I walked into school this morning and realized that there are only three days of school left after today. Somewhere in there, I have to figure out what I need to turn in on my thesis, since it covers two separate classes. A real problem I am having is that it is all the theoretical shit that needs to be done, and that is nowhere near my forte. Give me a problem and a couple of tools and I can build a couple of other tools and finish the job. I can’t theorize to save my life, but I can usually do well enough in applications to get through a class. Now though, now I am in trouble.

I’m going to bed.

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